Monday, April 09, 2007

Still hanging in there

Just wanted to let you know I am still hanging in there. I had some close calls. On Easter I had some very strong contractions but they would come and go. I am sure I am dilated more but probably not too much. I figure I lost the mucous plug at 1-2cms with both the girls and have not lost it yet this time around so I can't be more than 2 cms.
Am supposed to see the dr on Friday but I may call tomorrow and see if they can get me in sooner just in case. Besides my mom and Bobby keep threatening the call the dr "and tell on me" LOL. I just hate to seem like a pain in the butt to the dr.
I am starting to think that I am probably focusing too much on these issues rather than on my husband and maybe ignoring him a bit too much.
I had a very scary depressing dream last night that he died. I cried throughout the dream. I know or at least do not think it means he will die but more that I am just ignoring him too much. Its just that the drinking really drives me nutty. He is getting tried of it though. He just landed a better job where he has the opportunity to make double the amount of money every week. He will also have full benefits now and a 401K! On Wednesday everything will be finalized. Hopefully nothing will go wrong but as of right now it looks really good for him. He also has the opportunity to "prove himself" and get promoted to a store manager where he would make 90K a year. Boy would that be great!!!
Looks like Lily's father is finally going to be out of my life. He claims to have the adoption papers and I am just waiting on him to bring them to me signed and ready to go. He is supposably moving to Arizona and getting married to his current girlfriend.

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