Thursday, February 03, 2011

Father

Hi Ya Rose...

My Dad is sick. He has COPD and a very bad Heart issue where is requires a difib & pacemaker along with 24hr oxygen. He doesn't eat because he claims it makes him dizzy and I think its his blood sugar. He has now asked that I stop asking him how he is feeling and that I should help him die. I couldn't believe the words. He is suffering...I wish I could help but he doesn't want it. I'm not ready for him to leave this world. What does it look like, his life expectancy?
FLD 7/5/45 or 46

Jennifer

2 comments:

Rose said...

Aloha Jennifer,

I am sorry to hear of your father's ill health. Just be with him Jennifer, be present for him without the strong emotionality of attachment as much as possible. Sit and talk about good memories. Talk about God, if he wants to. Ask him if there is anything he wants to talk to you about, give a chance to clear his thoughts and conscience. Stop asking him how he's feeling, respect his wishes.
When he asks you to help him die what is he talking about?
Only God knows how long someone will live. Prepare yourself for his passing.
They never leave us Jennifer, they become our guiding angels and are always here for us, even without their body.
Death is part of the life cycle, we all have to endure the pain of losing a loved one. He needs to eat, ask him what he wants to eat. Drinking water is of utmost importance.
I am praying for your father, you and for the family.
Peace and love,
Rose

Jennifer said...

Rose, I know that you know my father passed and I have a couple questions.

1) He said he left two envelopes for my sister and I. We cannot remember where he said they were. can you help guide me as to where they are in his house? His initials are:FLD 7-5-44

2) How did he get the bag of ammunition and his gun out of the closet? Did he get it himself?

I am trying to be at peace. I want to know his hell and what he went through during the minutes he took his life. I love him...and I miss him.

Jennifer