Hi Rose

I see you are back in school. Good luck with your studies! I start school on Tuesday. I finally got my license just in time. I am excited and nervous at the same time. I am having a tough time right now but trying to stay positive. I was on birth control but stopped it because it was making me incredibly tired and suicidal. I haven't been off it long enough for the suicidial thoughts to complete go away but feeling somewhat better. I decided to naturally avoid pregnancy which is just as effective. My mother doesn't trust me though LOL. A friend died on Aug. 24th and I am having a hard time dealing with that. He was in a car accident, because the driver was drinking and driving. I had a dream the day after it happened and all the puzzle pieces are fitting together. As I get more info the dream is turning out to be extremely accurate. The only thing I have not found out for sure yet is whether or not my friend tried to change the gears in the car to get it to stop. In my dream he kept saying that he wanted the car to slow down, that he wanted it to stop. Then I kept getting, changing of the gears but nothing was working, the car was out of control. I found out that the driver was indeed going that fast, 170 mph :shock: . I am trying to forgive the driver but it is hard not to be angry. He was charged with manslaughter and felony DWI. I know it was his time to go but I still can not accept it. He was so young, only 26 years old. I dont understand why he wanted me to know what happened but I am glad that I do. I feel his presence sometimes and weird things happen, like a light that is turned off flickers on and off, and this does give me some comfort. Anything you can tell me as far as the gears of the car or anything would probably be comforting. His initals are JN and his birthday is May 12, 1981.