New Begginings

OK Rose. I am starting the process of forgiving and letting go of the anger. I wonder if my ex ever thinks in heart how sorry he is for what he has done to me? Or is it a true mental illness. SYZ 5-3-59.

I have court on March5th. Sam brought in a witness that confirmed that I harass him before exchanges with our son. This is completely untrue and I have proof. My lawyer was caught so off guard we had no defense. (I have changed attorneys) . I have printed off every single email divided it by months and the days of the week Sam is supposed to pick up his son. There is no harassment on my part. His yes, but not me. We filed a motion to re-consider because its very important that the judge knows that I have never harassed this man. My court date is at 9am , how do you see that going? I told you that my husband also had me arrested for petty larceny. Come to find out that the officer that took the report is a friend of his. That court time is at 11:30. I think it will look bad for Sam seeing that he did this out of maliciousness and I believe that the judge will see the same thing. How do you think both times will go?

I know you told me the divorce will be in my favor and I plan to play it to the very end and listen to my lawyers. I would really like to know how this will play out on Monday?

with my initials JMD ( D was my maiden name) JMZ (Married) 1-3-68. What does that say about me?

Jennifer

Searching for new job still

Hello Rose, Well i have been planting the seed to locate a new job, but no sucess yet...I work for a comp. called S&S express...and i am worried about them staying in business, we just had to cut more hours for my employees, i am already exhausted each day. Now i just want out....
Do you have any suggestions on securing this new job and when..????? I have my resume out online with the job hunting services. SMB 8-12-64 My goal day is April 1. and i scheduled my weeks vacation for the week before, so i dont end up getting it taken away from me,if they close the doors....I feel the problems with the profit and loss statements are done on purpose, it makes it easier to file bankrupcy if you show a loss each month...Sandy

Thanks

Hi Rose,

Thank you so much for your email. You always know the right things to say. I'm so grateful that I know you! Got some sad news about a friend (EL Dec 7.74) yesterday. She had a baby girl on the 8th. Everything went well. On Saturday, she fainted at home. My friend has meningitis in her brain and has been in a coma since Sunday. She had surgery to get rid of some of the fluid in her brain and now she is in an induced coma for 12 days, to allow her brain to hopefully heal itself. The doctors thought she might not make it through the surgery on Sunday but she did. I really hope she wakes up as her usual self next Friday, but she may not wake up at all. If she does survive, I hope her brain isn't damaged. The good news is that her baby is doing really well. But I still think it's not fair. She should be enjoying her little girl right now not unconscious in a hospital! Yet again, I've been reduced to tears for the second week in a row. But geez, stuff like this really does put things in perspective! Makes me feel quite silly for crying over something so silly last week!

Can you pray for my friend please? Thanks.

Love Mel

Need Reassurance

Hello Rose!
I need some reassurance. I just spent the past 2 days in the hospital for preterm contractions. At first nothing would stop the contractions but Mag finally did the trick. Now I am on Procardia at home.
Please tell me that you see me making it to at least 37 weeks. My due date is May 17th.
I think what scares me the most is that the Dr does not know why I am having the contractions.

Mirabai

Precise information about the life of Mirabai is hard to verify. However with the help of her poetry, and the writings of others; historians have pieced together the different elements of her life.
A key moment in the life of Mirabai was her arranged marriage to Prince Bhoj Raj. The Prince was the eldest son of a very influential Hindu family. The marriage gave Mirabai a very high social status. However Mirabai felt little if any attraction to the worldly comforts and pleasures of the Palace. Whenever she had the opportunity Mirabai would escape from her daily duties to spend time in prayer and meditation on her beloved Krishna. Her soul felt a spontaneous and overwhelming love for Sri Krishna. Her poems speak of the unbearable pangs of separation she felt when she could not contemplate and see her Krishna.

"Only he knows the bitterness of love Who has deeply felt its pangs.When you are in trouble No one comes near you:When fortune smiles.All come to share the joy.Love shows no external wound.But the pain pervades every poreDevotee Mira offers her bodyAs a sacrifice to Giridhara for ever."

New Begginings

Thank the Lord. I don't have a lot of time to be angry either. I cannot forgive him for the Rape. Why should I? Better yet, how can I?

RMH is very smart, you are right about that. He is very book smart along with street smart and always thinks strategic. Believe me, if he had his way he would marry me tomorrow. He tells me and is very supportive of me. He has gone with me to my infusion (Remicade) and sat with me for three hours.

He is very blunt... which is hard to get, because I am emotional. I like things sugar coated LOL. Personally, I think by the summer he will have asked me to marry him. I am the one who is acting cautious. He knows I am having a hard time trusting... and he says he is there to work with me and that hes not leaving. I don't see him as a cheater either. A little freaky maybe, but not a cheater. But all in all he is very gentle and thoughtful. Even if I weren't in a messy divorce, and I was seeing him, it would be hard to imagine myself without him.

Glad the beach was fun, we are freezing our butts off here!

Jennifer

Buddhist Wisdom

On life's journey Faith is nourishment, Virtuous deeds are a shelter, Wisdom is the light by day and Right mindfulness is the protection by night. If a man lives a pure life nothing can destroy him; If he has conquered greed nothing can limit his freedom.

Buddha

Cosmic Religion

"The religion of the future will be a cosmic religion. It should transcend personal God and avoid dogma and theology. Covering both the natural and the spiritual, it should be based on a religious sense arising from the experience of all things natural and spiritual as a meaningful unity. Buddhism answers this description...If there is any religion that could cope with modern scientific needs, it would be Buddhism. "

Albert Einstein

Kaye

Aloha my expressive Goddess

It is done by asking "Please (God) remove whatever stands between me and Abundant Prosperity."

luv luv
~R

Sarada Devi

"As you smell the fragrance of a flower by handling it or the smell of sandalwood by rubbing it against a stone, so you obtain spiritual awakening by constantly thinking of God."

what now!

Rose,
Last night,I saw the Kahuna ,he was pouring water in the middle of my forehead.
He was saying something in Hawaiian since I did not understand,I turned away.
He went away, came back and turned me to him. I do not remember what happened next.
When I woke up, I felt urge to meditate at the beach. I went to Hauula. I meditate there.
First,I saw image of Pele,she went in my throat. I loved since I have issues with communication
Then I heard Hawaiian words,since I do not understand it,I just listened. I felt like my head was splitting. I felt someone tilt my head,my mouth opened,I felt warm liquid in my mouth,down my throat and body. What is happening?
Love,TAW 5/17/67

It's That Time Again

A question for a friend

A friend of mine had her baby boy early at 30 weeks. They found out he has a congential heart defect and goes to surgery once his weight is up to 2000 grams. They also found out he has a genetic defect. The test result stated that the net result of testing is the deletion of the 9p and duplication and the 8q subtelomertic regions of the chromosomes. The drs have been really heartless. They have told my friend that she should take him off his heart meds and let him die. Of course she will not do that and give her son the fighting chance he deserves.
Do you see him being okay.
EDV January 20th, 2007.

Happy Valentine's Day my Loves

I love you!

All the love that ever was, from the beginning of time, all the love that saturates this moment, and all the love that ever will be is in us right now.

Be in your heart, be with the Divine

xoxoxox ~R

New Begginings

Hi Rose, I hope you are not angry with me. From your last comment. I did take a couple of my items, yes. But they were mine. Maybe it was wrong... Gee wiz. I guess trying to come to reality that I did create that is hard. I mean come on that was last year. If it were so important he should have made the complaint last year. He is trying to make things hard for me. You said things would work out for me in the divorce, so I am going bye that.

I am dating a new man. He seems wonderful and honest. Initials RMH birth date September 19 , not sure of the year but I believe hes 46 and a RAT in Chinese calendars so I believe is 1960 because I am the monkey 1968. I saw it in a restaurant. What do you read on him? Although his initials are rmh he goes by Mark instead of Robert. Don't know why.

I wish the weather in Hawaii was here in DC. We have inches of ice from a storm last night.

Take Care,

Jennifer

Happy Valentines Day

I hope everyone finds love or is reunited with the ones they truely love/ twin flames real soon.

Peace.

Interesting

Rose,
In 2003, when I hiked up Diamond Head,I saw 3 ghost figures on the top of the ridge of the volcano. One was Kahuna figure 2 other were kneeling. All in pre contact Hawaii attire. Last night the kahuna figure came to me in a dream,telling me to go back to Diamond Head. In the dream,he gives me a drink,I transform. He also imprint information in English and Hawaiian in notebook I carry with me.
So today,after church,I went diamond Head cemetery to see my grandmother and great grandmother,I hiked up Diamond Head,I saw angels on cave walls,I did not see him but when I meditate at the top of ridge of the volcano, I saw him and then I saw lite circle it move to middle of my forehead,the circle came towards my face as it did that it grew and hit my middle of my forehead.
Would that open my third eye?
What is going on?
Lately,Rose,I have been dreaming of teaching. 4 days in a row. I do not miss it. Why do ou think I am dreaming about it?
Love,TAW 5/17/67

Continued thanks, Rose .....

I just wanted to thank you for creating and maintaining this site, and so generously offering your insights to those of us who have found our way here.

Peace & Love --


Kaye

Diamond Head

Rose,
do you see me living in Diamond Head?
when will I move to Hilo?
i applied for Job Resource Specialist with city & county,will I get?
I have been in my current position since 9/2005.
Love,TAW 5/17/67

New Begginings

Hello Rose,

I think I have a permanent Black Cloud that his hovering over me. My ex- Sam filled out a petty larceny warrant on me for something last year. He said I went to his office and stole items. What I took was my journal and my divorce decree and some tapes that were returned. I saw my dead grandmothers costume jewelry there as well as most of my other personal items that he took and hid in his office. He is claiming I stole my own things. So I was arrested. I cannot believe this.

I do not believe my attorney is representing me well. I am meeting a new attorney this weekend in hopes he can steer me in the correct direction. He does have great credentials.

I am working with the Commonwealth Attorney's office for the past month. Before my ex had me arrested. I was working with them because my ex took a very large refund check and forged my name and put it into his private account. The CA office wants to prosecute him for forgery, uttering and grand larceny. But they are going to let me use this as a bargaining tool to make Sam behave. Is this a good idea? I think so.

My son, Brandon, has Croup and Strep. I had to take him to the ER last Sunday because he couldn't breath very well. And then my car broke down. I tell you. Is there any good days coming my way?

Jennifer

Need Your Help

Rose, I desperately need your help.
Larry aka Dewayne has had 2 unsupervised visitations and both times she comes back and is hysterical. I do not know what is going on but it does not sound good. When she had the supervised visits she was always very happy afterwards, counting down the days to when she goes again.
Now each time she comes back she says she wants to go to an earlier time when I was mad at her so she can go back and make it right.
I am not sure if he and his x-g/f Lynda are saying bad things about me, if they are up to something dirty. Even though he is no longer with this girl she was at both visits with her children (one of which is supposably Dewayne's son.) They now want to take Lily to Sears with her kids to have pics for Valentine's Day. At first I did not think anything of it but now I am wondering if there is alterative motives?
I do have a GPS phone for Lily but every week there is technical difficulties where she can not be located for hrs. She knows how to call 911 if necessary. However, if they are filling her mind with somethings and they are planning on something she may think I left her because she is bad.
I called a child psychiatrist but because it is Sunday they are obviously not in. However, I wanted to leave a message so they can call me back first thing tomorrow morning and get to the bottom of this as soon as possible.
Lily's initals and birthday is LAW 3/12/02.